eh nvm
i just need a bit of time to cooldown
Iāll join ya soon enough, bestie
Updated it.
Gonna be taking another break from the forums, hopefully not as long as last time. With all the shit going on around us, I donāt need any added stress.
taking a break from playing fm / fol for a bit
still will play if absolutely necessary, but some things just donāt want to be unearthed
stay safe
my recent lack of care about the game and extra personal circumstances are both bad signs for my fming here.
iāll probably return at some point but i shouldnāt play for some time
might still spectate games and make fun of things and people because thatās been my mood for a while
so but not rly?
Iām taking an indefinite (likely permenant) break from playing here.
I still plan to co-host a lot of stuff here that I hope will be interesting and fun and Iāll be around and following a good amount of matches Iām not a part of.
But yeah, when I havenāt improved at all since starting here and learning how to play, and have even gotten worse in some ways, despite pouring hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of hours into this place, itās time to stop, to be frank.
Have you ever tried to actually analyze what you did wrong instead of joining yet another game straight after previous ended?
I just keep staying the same or get worse at times, and I feel like it isnāt that worth it to invest the time to improve.
I feel this way because currently I feel that using meta analysis is my only viable way to play competently, and that takes dozens of hours every game
Have you ever considered taking FM less serious? Stressing yourself over a game is not worth it - unless you want it, of course.
I think a big part of why a lot of us play FM is for the adrenaline
But Iāve just found that itās not feasible for me to play in a match well with the time I have
Young chicken
I require you to spectate me and marshals game once it exists
Thatās pretty much what I do, I just try not to stress over it. Whatever happens happens
Quitting for a while and resigning from moderator
I donāt know if Iāll come back
Luxy was talking to me on discord about their reason for leaving.
In a brief summation, they are leaving to focus on their personal life.
If you want to know the full details, theyāre willing to respond on discord.
planning on taking a long hiatus
if you need me
reach me on discord
The last few hours have been hell for me. I just feel really terrible and just upset for a number of reasons. This is for a lot of reasons but at least one of them might be putting too much emotional stock in FM. I think im going to only play 1 game at a time because I feel like im just not in a good state to do any more then that. I am still going to host the apprentice because I have everything planned out for that game, but right now I really shouldnāt overexert myself and my state is being projected onto others. Im just playing with AtE and Itās really inexcusable.
Im sorry to those iāve hurt. I just really need to focus on myself and balancing more then 1 game and doing that is nearly impossible.
Im posting this here because while iām not leaving my play activity will decrease greatly