Alice please don’t leave, a lot of these posts make me think you’re going to do something drastic.
There are many resources and ways to get help out there, and isolating yourself is not the way to go about it. You have never been a burden to us and are one of the best Forum players, and I admire you for that. Please stay.
Clearly not. I have only seen sadness in wake of the news of your departure.
Try and name 3 people here on the forums that would be happy to have you gone. I assure you, you will find noone, whereas all of us are really sad to see you go.
Noone else here is a match for my tunneling. I would just waltz over everyone else.
i think Blue forgives you as well or he wouldn’t like these posts. You clearly have differing sensibilities regarding a certain topic, but I think that has zero bearing on how you are perceived by this community.
I’m going to skip the usual platitudes, because judging by the situation you’re in, you’ve probably heard them all already.
Things are probably really tough for you right now, and it seems as though you’re carrying the weight of it with you wherever you go, whatever you do. If that’s the reason you want to take a break from everything, that’s fine, and I believe I understand where you’re coming from.
However, if you’re contemplating suicide, you should really wait. It might sound stupid (and who am I to be giving advice like this, right?), but as with anything, giving some time to think everything through may be the way to go. Maybe it’s not for all that long, but if you just spend some time considering your options, and going through everything that’s stressing you, and everything that your brain is tricking you into believing is true due to your illness, and seeing the result of really taking apart the things that hurt you. For all I know, you may have already done this and come to a conclusion, but if you haven’t, I highly advise it.
Your choice is of course yours to make, but there is only truth is the statement that everybody here on the forums would be really sad to see you go, especially if it meant you wouldn’t come back. I can’t speak for your IRL situation, so you could be in a tough spot there, but statistically, things may not be as bad as they seem (and I’m really sorry if they are). Things will be tough, and that may not change, but there is a lot to live for and a lot more to see in the future, and it’s a tragedy that anyone has to miss out on that. I hope you all the best, and I’d really hope to see you fight through this.
Hi Alice,
I hope you’re doing OK.
Depression is a serious thing and if you need help, do not hesitate to ask a professional or find someone to talk to. I know it’s hard. But I believe you’re strong.
When one is down, making rash decisions should be avoided. Sometimes one day is all it takes for things to start to feel better. Just try to hang in there.
Please try and take it easy on yourself and remember to stay hydrated.
Thank you for caring Xblade, but I am fine and in a better mental state here.
I decided to remain on the forums for now and will probably make a follow-up post shortly afterwards.
You’ve never fucked up games when I played. Your good at FM’s(least better than me)
I’m not gonna lie, I have not been around here too long to know you like others do; but, that still doesn’t mean you’re unknown.
Plus, I’ve been in that mindset before. I’ve wanted to delete ToL before, after loss, after feeling like I was useless in the games, why would I play it if I am gonna drag down everyone’s fun? Why should I try if I’m going to make tons of fuck-ups, and cost my allies to lose? Why not just play something I’m good at, like Battlefield, Titanfall, or For Honor?
But, I pushed myself. I tried it. Again. And again. And soon enough, I found enjoyment in it once again.
I hope the same will happen with you, but, if it doesn’t, I hope you will enjoy whatever you do.
Oh and I figured this is probably better for people to see so
9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor:
10 If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
Verse 11 has some connotations but it’s some good, holy texts all round
God tier dev right here.
@Alice I have no clue what incident has apparently prompted blowback, and I’m not going to try and convince you to stay on the forums right now (breaks can be very healthy, if you need one, take one), but I damn well expect to see you back eventually.
You’re far too fun to play with.
Do what you need, but as far as I’m concerned you’re honestly one of my favorite people here. So, again, do what you need to do - and if that’s a break, again, go ham. But remember that we’ll be waiting for your return if you go. And if you don’t, we’ll be happier for having you.
Disagree - this was from a time before internal heating was a thing without, y’know, fire, which is kinda a bad idea in a lot of circumstances.
I’m glad that you’re still here.
Remember that its OK to take it easy and go slow when you need to.
Try and do things that you normally like to do. Go for a walk in nature, hug or pat a dog/cat or feed a stray one. Cook something nice for yourself. Treat yourself to some good food.
Please take care of yourself, Alice.
Yeah, i know this post is late (I have been busy recently) and that the situation is resolved already, BUT:
If you ever need to talk to someone, ping me on discord or the forums, and ill make time to talk.
I have had… Issues aswell, but im trying right now to get better (Yay Therapy)
Just saying if you ever need to chat. 
I’m back I guess?
I was sorta busy and in a rush that I forgot to say anything here (soz)
Guess it’s my turn right now. With exams and the stress of uni which I thought that I have managed to get through, this sadly isn’t the case. I’m struggling with sleeping and have massive headaches where I feel like I’m constantly dizzy and sometimes close to blacking out (and right now while typing this, I feel like that right now). I’ve gone back to a dark place if you want me to be honest after an event that happened earlier, it just pushed me over the edge. I normally wouldn’t leave forum games unless I was really busy, but right now, I think my mental health needs to be taken care off. I’ll still be here and if I can spectate games and matches, I will do so, but as for playing them, I feel like I’m not having as much fun anymore while I’m back in the dark. I’m fine somewhat. Not sure how long this will take, might take a day, a few days, weeks and even months. I will still be on the cord if you want to check up on me and everything and probably will play on ToL perhaps a bit more, but for now, my time at FoL is done.
It has been an absolute pleasure playing with all you guys. I know I might not interact or talk to everyone on the forums, but I hope I made some friends, especially some of the newbies. But right now, I must say good bye to the games and just get myself on the road to recovery.
With all the best, Wolfy.
(Ravetail Brightwolf~)
