I maintain my stance that the source of this opinion of yours results from really low WiM, and in the past at times IRL emergencies, which has happened lots of times both town and scum. You’ve scumlocked town me while town early almost a half a dozen times at this point, and I don’t remember you ever re-considering in any of those except BotF3.
I tried very hard in NDFM and CFM2. Alice claimed before that I worked harder than any other scum in NDFM, and I chose a play in CFM2, that while it seemed baffling at the time, it kept my team in the game longer than anything else would have. The well-timed shade on leafia, the tunnel and vote on simon, and more; all of it was planned.
I feel like I tried in ToLFM, and I won despite being SPK’d by my own team.
Yes, I’ll probably never be the MVP of a dominant scum win. But as I get more comfortable with my new playstyle and my commitment to never try meta analysis again, do I think I’ll be able to start doing quite well as scum consistently before the end of this year? Absolutely yes.