I want to stay awake for a day, but ultimately I’m too scared to do things that are harmful in nature, even if I know it probably wouldn’t be that bad
makes a list of things to do
actually does the things on the list
???
this is really weird
it turns out that apparently it’s possible to do things without dropping into hyperfocus???
Congratulations, you officially have more willpower than I ever will :^)
so like I don’t know how to explain this but it doesn’t … feel like willpower is the mental resource I’m consuming? which is also weird?
that probably makes zero sense
let’s look through the possible emotions that could be causing it
are you jealous of your own success at doing stuff
depends on what the work is
for most things it’s just a ‘okay I’m going to do this’ and then it happens
hyperfocus just happens occasionally
I think it’s tied in with stress
I realize that to normal people this probably sounds like ‘today I managed to walk across the room! weird!’ but, like, as far back as I can remember I basically haven’t been able to … do things … without either hyperfocusing on One Thing for a While (and losing my ability to get the thing done if that’s interrupted for any reason) (I’m explaining this badly too! but like, the thing I’m describing there is not Just Focusing On Things) or ineffectually dragging my brain across metaphorical rocks (and still not usually doing a particularly good job of getting it to do the thing)
and
it turns out that there’s a secret third way to do things?
What type of things are we talking about
isn’t hyperfocus just a brute force way of solving problems
hyper focus afaik just happens
I – wish that I had magically sprouted this ability earlier, because it seems useful?
I know it just happens
but I’m trying to figure out distinguishing factors between hyperfocus doing something and just normal doing something
Alright here’s a easy tip
If you suddenly stop in the middle of what you are doing and ask yourself “should I take a break” you aren’t in hyper focus
also, like, I can’t be like ‘I’m going to go hyperfocus on the thing’ and expect it to actually work
If you know you are hyper focused you aren’t hyper focused :’)