this reminds me of a lesson i learned the hard way
If you know you have powerful depression, DO NOT PLAY FM!!
Is it possible to play without breaking any rules? Yes.
Is it possible to play well anything like a non-depressed person is capable of and/or ever escape perpetual LHF-ville?
FUCK NO!!!
FM addiction can be really, really binding and can feel unbeatable, even in the face of mental illness. If anyone would know this, I would.
In the end though, you need to come to this realization that if you have mental health disorder(s), you need to find the willpower to exhibit restraint in this manner (I have now finally found this willpower, thankfully).
there are a thousand other ways that anyone could spend their time that both aren’t FM and are all immensely less taxing on mental health than FM.