so I know how it feels, probably
this world is a dark place
I guess I’ll say the reason why I’m in an awful mood rn.
quickedit. dont call the police
ironically. my dad actually hit me.
he hadn’t done so in years.
and my nose bled and bled and bled.
I was crying for pretty much an hour.
I was being a dick towards him so yeah.
my dad immediately just started crying too when he realised he hit me on my nose.
it was a really forceful slap and I’m still trembling rn…
it also doesnt help that every thing that has taunted me throughout my entire life came back at this time.
lots of my life involves past events coming back and haunting me.
I feel you sonnnnnnnn
Writing motivation letters for job applications is one of the worst activities possible.
Most dull and tedious christmas I ever had
And that’s how all my days would be if I didnt had to work…? So the thing that is the reason for almost all my stress and crisis is what keeps me from feeling like a total piece of junk that does nothing productive all day? Sure a nice way for things to be
Basically why I went crazy when I stopped studying 1/2 of my day
Tbh I really should go back at studying 1/2
continuing from d&d 5e.
I havent been mentally stable for weeks now.
the last time I seemed mentally stable was quite long ago
the reason why I dont join forum games is due to how unpredictable my mental health state is.
and d&d has also been a rough spot for me.
the only thing that really keeps me happy now is just not being near people.
even my friends
Does it also means that you are always uncertain of what will happen next?
hell. the main thing that used to haunt me isnt even a major issue anymore.
I’ve gave up all hope on that too.